I’ve been here around 4 weeks now. I think I’m settling in but I’m not totally sure what I’m settling in to.
Boston: Is beautiful. I have taken a myriad of pictures while canvassing. The T is getting easier and easier to navigate and sometimes I even get to sit down. Free Fun Fridays at museums are a part of my plan to explore Boston and leave the house more. Never been in New England in the Summer, since I was very small. NOT a fan of the weather and I do live in New England over the winter.
Internship: is going well. I really like going in to do something everyday. It feels like I am doing something with and for a purpose. I think I am starting to make friends there or at least someone to talk to while making coffee and sometimes at lunch. I do like most of the people I work with so it’s nice relief.
I, personally: am in the Doldrums (I don’t know if you’ve ever read the Phantom Tollbooth but it’s where I live now). I am getting better at feeding myself, I even bought chicken this week. I spend a lot of time reading, and I have even started writing again, but I am lonely. I see my apartment-mate maybe every other day for never more than a minute at a time. I don’t hear from many people back home or here for that matter. Keeping myself busy just trying to push off the feelings of isolation.
Hopefully it gets better.
One big part of my internship and the part I was the most scarred about is canvassing. This is basically means going around a neighborhood going to doors and talking to people, trying to get anyone to take literature or sign-up or give money to a cause. Luckily in this case we aren’t asking for money we are just asking people to take literature and maybe sign-up for a mailing list. We also aren’t going to every house but have a set list of people and addresses.
It is honestly very mentally and physically exhausting, but not as anxiety inducing as I had expected. I really don’t like talking to people but it’s not too bad because most of the time people aren’t home or they shoo you off. Sometimes you even get to have nice conversations with people, that has happened once or twice. The physical exhaustion is worse, I am still sore from Wednesday. We went to a little town outside of Boston. One of the streets I was assigned was on an extreme hill. The front doors were two to three flights up from the sidewalk, just for them not to be home 95% of the time. It was exhausting and also hot. Most days that we’ve been canvasing we’ve clocked in between 4-6 miles and it’s been 85 and humid. Not ideal days for me type people.
Moving forward. I don’t really have a choice about whether or not to continue because it is you know my internship also potentially a big part of the field I want to go into. But I think for now I’m working on focusing on the bright side. A) I do really need exercise so it’s not the worst thing and B) I’m getting to see more of Boston which is nice it’s like I get to explore through my job. In the future though I really need to figure out a way to bring water with me. Also to start planning my route before I start walking.
Hopefully as I get used to it, everything will get easier.
Boston. So mostly a new city, but I’ve been here a few times for commuter rails, airports, a date, and one time a Model United Nations conference. It is in fact very different to live somewhere versus travel through in it. It’s both a huge city but seems less hectic than the other large cities I’ve been too, NYC and DC, more in the vein of Chicago (at least what I’ve seen of Chicago). However, it remains endlessly confusing.
The people seem less rushed but not necessarily friendlier, not to say that everyone I’ve interacted with has not been exceedingly kind. The transport system while easy to use in practice makes very little sense when one is actually trying to figure out where to go. After my first day literally put me on a subway car and told me to get off when they said a stop name. It totally worked but as an outsider it was hard to understand. Especially with all the turns and crossovers, the Green line has % subsections of lines within it!
The confusing transportation is not the only reason it is hard for me to go out and explore the wonderful city I am in. For the most part I’m by myself and it’s hard to put yourself into somewhere you do not know with out a safety net of at least a friend. On Thursday I had a friend who had just finished a day working in the city and he came out to visit for a while. It was wonderful not only to have a friend but to feel comfortable walking around. It let me find out that the reason there are so many sirens at night is because I’m living ridiculously close to a fire station. It also led to me having one of the best sandwiches I’ve had in a while (Prosecution and fig with goat cheese).
I loved exploring but going by myself is hard. It makes me nervous, I think justifiably because exploring implies the unknown. I’m working slowly on learning how to explore, today I found a market. It’s technically more like a convenience store and deli but there’s also a nice produce section. It was a good and useful discovery. Tomorrow my plan is to find a bookstore, I do well with bookstores and bookstore people. Though it is small exploring I am going for progress.
In the past three days, I have moved into my first apartment, began a season in a city where I barely know a soul, and have started my first professional internship in a career I someday hope to be in. This is not my permanent situation just the summer before my senior year. A trial run of my life to be next year, now is the time for trial and error. As I begin to enter this very scary new phase of my life I thought it could be cool to document my adventures, that may not be so adventurous but new.
My apartment is small it is two bedrooms a bathroom and a tiny kitchen. I don’t have a roommate so the only person living with me is the stranger just across the kitchen. She seems so nice but I haven’t seen her at all since move in. I had hoped we would become friends. My internship is nice, my bosses seem to genuinely want to give us experience and skills to enter the field. My fellow interns seem very nice but I have a hard time with new people, but two of them helped me navigate my way home so hopefully it could be something great. The city is big and confusing. I don’t totally understand the transportation system (also it’s slightly possible I walked in front of train this morning). My internship provides me a Charlie Card, but truthfully I don’t know where I would go. I don’t really know anyone except a couple people from college who live on the outskirts of Boston.
So far the two biggest problems I think I will face is feeding myself and being lonely. I really want this summer to be good and for me to grow more as a person and learn about how to be a real adult.