I have a very old cat

So I have one pet. a cat, named Happy. He is named after the dwarf (my favorite) in Snow White and certainly not his mood. He recently turned 17 years old which in cat years puts him somewhere in his 80s. I personally got happy when he was about 6 months old when I was around 6 years old from a family friend. Happy is probably one of the best and most consistent things in my life transitioning with me from grade school to moving out after college. He is getting old though and we have had to make some changes for how we care for him.

Firstly and probably the most drastic change has been his food. In his sixteenth year we were having a lot of problems with his digestion and a puking problem. We have switched him to wet food, like a baby kitten. When we have to go away for a weekend or something we use grain-free dry food. It ha significantly reduced the times of cat vomit down to 0-1 times a week.


Secondly, Happy’s engagement or stimulation wahtever you want to call it has been harder. Mostly because he no longer finds chinese yoyo’s interesting and doesn’t fall for the laser pointer and can see who is holding the string. So most of his “toys” these days are hairbands. Which he LOVES! I cannot understate this he flings them and chases them all over our apartment and drowns them in his water. If you have any further ideas for stimulation for him please let me know.

happy nerd

Lastly, he’s become a real cuddle bug and more needy than before. He is always wanting laptime, more than just I am doing something else and wants attention but yells at me and my partner to sit down so he can sit. He lays behind me while I do the dishes. Happy actually sits either on the bathmat or in the linen closet while we are in the shower.

Happy bathroom

Mostly, though he is the same sweet, arrogant, little lion that I have loved for 70% of my life. Which makes it harder to admit how old he has gotten, as whenever I do people think he’s sickly or dying. For the moment, that is untrue but given his age and slight heart murmur there is nothing to stop that from being a day away. So anyway I have a really old cat for right now we are doing things that make it okay. Hopefully we can keep it up.

Happy Cuddle


Do we need extra challenges?

I know the answer is probably yes but I want to vent so here it goes. Why does everything have to push us? So many things are hard so why do we seek out additional challenges. It seems masochistic at best to push ourselves beyond the limits we have found. There are so many aspects of life that are already challenging: family, relationships, health, etc. So why should my job be hard?

So I like my job. In fact I like it a lot I make good money, I like the people I work with, and I feel good about the work I do. However,  it is not always the most mentally taxing work. Sometimes I am working hard all day long and some days it seems that if I only work sometimes or and off through out the day I will never have enough work to do. Not that I don’t ask for work or let my boss and co-workers know I have the capacity to take on more. I do. It just seems as though there is not enough to take on, like the department is too big.

Since telling this to my boyfriend he keeps sending me new job openings to apply for. But I am not ready to move on yet. I like my job and I like my work, but I understand the pitfalls of getting too comfortable. There are so many other things in my life that are uncertain and I don’t want to make this part any harder.

Anyway, what do you all think? Do we always have to be seeking for challenges to push us or is it sometimes to let some things lie…?

Top 19 Books of 2019

Wow-oh Wow! 2019 was a GREAT reading year for me! I ready 141 books and only didn’t finish one, which for me is great. For the most part I read a lot of books I truly loved and explored some new authors and genres. I read more contemporary books and actually enjoyed some mysteries (this is impressive just accept it). It was really hard to narrow it down to a tight favorite list and kind of ironically I ended up with 19 for 2019 that I just couldn’t really make a favorites list without. Let me know if you have read any of my favorite or what your favorite reads of the year were!

19. Tower of Dawn by Sarah J Maas: Honestly after Empire of Storms I was nervous, but I loved this story. I loved Chaol. I loved his growth and EVERY SINGLE PERSON on the southern continent.

18. After the Fall by E.C. Myers: So RWBY is one of my favorite shows but I loved this look into the world. It traveled to one of the regions the show had yet to explore after the falling events of season 3.  So it had a lot of freedom. Team CVFY (coffee) was great with complicated relationships and semblances that weren’t for fighting or couldn’t be used. So all the fight seasons were intense. If you love the show it is a must read and will hopefully set up seasons to come.

17. The Bluest Eye by Toni Morrison: This is the story of a town and a girl over a year and wish. This is a beautifully written and constructed book, craft-wise perhaps one of the best I’ve ever read. However, this is probably one of the only books on this list I couldn’t read again just out of pure mental and emotional capacity.

16. Stardust by Neil Gaiman: This a wonderful fairytale for adults or really anyone. I really enjoyed this read and it gave me more excuses to watch the move. You can read about more of my thoughts here.

15. Scythe by Neal Schusterman: Once again a very hyped book and series that deserves it. This dystopian (if you didn’t know) takes place in a world where all ailments even death have been conquered but to control the population Scythes are enlisted to maintain it. It takes so many twists and in a genre that has been so explored I was so surprised. You can read my full thoughts on this post.

14. Truly Devious by Maureen Johnson: This is a mystery novel that is set at a boarding school where everyone has one passion they study. Stevie wants to explore true crime, specifically the unsolved mystery that happened at Ellingham Academy in the past. There were so many mysteries, some easy and some hard. I was surprised by the twists and nerves I felt as we learned more.

13. Language of Thorns by Leigh Bardugo: This was a collection of fairy tales from the world of  the Grisha. It was beautiful and strange and I think about at least one of the once a week.

12. The Complete Persepolis by Marjan Satrapi: This one is pretty critically acclaimed, so I probably don’t need to sell it but it is the graphic memoir of a woman who grows up during the Iranian Revolution. Like with all memoirs I am always shocked by how much life goes on  even during revolution.

11. Daja’s Book by Tamora Pierce: Really in this slot could be any of the Circle of Magic quartet. This was my first time reading a book of Tamora Pierce’s outside Tortall. I’m happy to report that the works remain great. I really liked how this book highlighted the difference between scholar mages and natural ones, as well as the imagination and hope of this young band.

10. The Fifth Season by N.K. Jemisin: Honestly, this one of the most intricate and honestly intimidating fantasy books I’ve read in a long time. It is this crazy world were orogenes who have connection to the energy world that goes through seasons of apocolypse (the fifth season). They are treated terribly by everyone even though they save the world. It is disturbing, heart-wrenching, and so lovable.

9. Ten Thousand Doors of January by Alix E. Harrow: This is a portal fantasy as peihaps implied by the title, but largely focused on one door. So many stories are happening collected along a lifetime. January grows up as a ward of Mr. Locke, a wealthy archaeologist. Her father works for him and is often traveling around the world. January is always left waiting and wanting to follow. It is a beautifully written tale, that feels eerily familiar and wondrous.

8. The Girl Who Drank the Moon by Kelly Barnhill: This book surprised me the most I think. It is about a baby girl sacrificed/rescued from a forest and the witch accidentally feeds the young infant moonlight instead of starlight, imbuing her with magic. It was such a beautiful story about community, family, the lies we tell each other and ourselves, and magic.

7. The Grace Year by Kim Liggett: This was the scariest book I read this year. It follows the along the natural succession of The Power meets The Hunger Games. In this community, for their sixteenth year girls are banished away to purge all “magic and temptation” they possess. It is a complex and scary look at the relationships between women, what allies look like, and how to survive in a society that doesn’t give you agency.

6. UnPregnant by Jenni Hendriks and Ted Caplan: This is the funniest book anyone has ever read about abortion. It largely about a road trip, reuniting, and the decisions we make for ourselves versus for others.

5. The Forgotten Sisters by Shannon Hale: This was one of my first reads the year and the final book of the Princess Academy trilogy which I hold very close to my heart. It was a wonderful conclusion about the power of self-advocating and trauma, but also like middle grade.

4. Lalani of the Distant Sea by Erin Entrada KellyThis is a middle grade book based on Filipino folklore. It is the story of a girl who choses herself and her mother and must brave a journey that none of completed. It is so freaking magical and darker than I had expected. It’s such a flowing read that I immediately wanted to restart the second I had turned the last page. 

3. Bloodwitch by Susan Dennard: This is one of my favorite series currently and I was so lucky to get to go to one of the tour stops for this release. It is the fourth book in a series so I can’t really do a summary. But I am constantly stunned by how much more I love each installment and the way that the witchlands continue to grow .

2. Anger is a Gift by Mark Oshiro: This is a hard book to explain. I guess at it’s core it is about police brutality and not feeling safe where you are supposed it. It is an incredibly moving story that wears it’s heart on every page.

1. Stepsister by Jennifer Donnelly: This is a story about a stepsister who needs a wish but cannot make it until she recovers all the pieces of her heart. I truly have never read a book that the entire time I was reading it felt like it had been written for ME and that I had just been waiting for it. It went immediately to my all time favorite list. 

Goals for 2020

So 2020 is another long year. This past year was honestly pretty great. It started pretty rocky, learning how to live with my partner for the first time and just going on job interviews for months. It end up turning into a year of stability, getting into a pattern with work, the apartment, my partner. However, moving forward HeaI worry that it may turn into a year of stagnation. When things are easy it’s so easy to just not do anything. So moving forward these goals are about moving into a year of growth.

Financial Goals:

  • Put 4-5 grand into savings, I will probably have to buy a new car in the next two years.
  • Let my partner help me sign up for a credit card
  • Spend less money of things and more money on activities

Professional Goals:

  • Attend a networking event
  • Reconnect with some old political contacts
  • Take the GRE (and seriously consider grad school)

Health Goals:

  • Stretch everyday
  • Get 8 hours of sleep a night there is a no reason not to at the moment.
  • Eat a vegetable every day! (This one will be the hardest)

Personal Goals:

  • Go out of the house on dates once a month
  • Watch more movies, try to watch one a week
  • Make active time to hang out with friends like a human being.

Writing Goals:

  • Journal everyday in some form.
  • Try two different forms of drafting for my fiction writing
  • I’m sticking with my 3 posts a month for this next year.  I didn’t technically hit it but it was largely due to computer issues. (Stretch goal: once a week)

Reading Goals:

  • I am planning on committing to the Around the Year in 52 books challenge group on goodreads. There are a lot of cool prompts that should hopefully get me out of my comfort zone.
  • Finish more series
  • Feel less guilty about re-reads

What are your goals for the new year and the new decade?